Thursday, September 30, 2004
over .
heys.
was watching singore idol. just ended. wasnt that bad. the results would only be out like tomorrow. boring. ha.
anyways. school today. was boring. weather was just perfect fer sleeping. didnt really pay much attention today. was trying to complete my maths homework. now i have biology and english to do. arghs. like never ending can. wah lao.
after school cabbed down to ps. watched resident evil with steph. wai ling. michelle. aisha. febriana. mia. was alright. some what like dawn of the dead. gross lah. i didnt watch th first one. so cant compare ta that. still. the movie was fine. was only a short one. like an hour and a half there about.
yah. thats my day. oh and my phone ? is going crazy. totally can. lights keep flickering. and the buttons on the last row and the cancel button arent functioning that well. gosh. maybe the phone needs ta rest. haiya. irritating.
anyways. needta study hard ! prelim grades sucks. yeaps.
i'm outta here. take care.
i dont wanna love again .
+replies to tags .
*03/sam - hahs. you funnaye can. can say that the wrong place where you were going. hahas. terrible lahs. anyways. do take care yes ? see ya around !
wAnru - heys. hahas. you take care too !
u.nica - heys. hah. too old fer children's day. hehs. =) take care .
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 9:32 PM
Monday, September 27, 2004
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okies. a quickie.
today school ? nothing ta add to that. got more results from prelims. and no. i didnt do well. i dont know what happened. but i think it totally screwed.
i failed maths. yes maths. how bad can that be.
and social studies too. failed that horribly. when i saw my marks. i totally didnt know what ta say. hahs. think like second from below. goodness.
passed accounts. wasnt the marks that i wanted. could have done better.
yupps. thats the combined i got so far. the rest tomorrow i think.
wells. gotta really work hard now. super hard. theres not much time left fer fun now. prelims was bad. hopefully o's wont this bad.
and yes. i'm not wronging you here. it's just obvious. i didnt do anything wrong. so please stop staring. no i am not being sensative. you would know what i am talking about here.
okay. gotta go off now. see ya around. take care !
replies -
thanks nove . bel . xiao wei . heather !! love ya all. i'm fine. really. smiles ! thanks fer the help and listening to my nonsense heather ! (:
yeapps. take care !!
mich . i relinked you !
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:15 PM
Sunday, September 26, 2004
naive .
i dont have the perfect reason
to smile today
but i believe
i will
somehow
maybe just the person you love
was never the one that could make you happy
or just make you feel wanted
that person may just be by your side all this time
without you realising
that unknowing sweetness
and the presence of her
that brings a smile
knowing that she cares
might just be enough
her sweetness
that melts in your heart
makes you feel loved
but what i really want
was just a simple love
made of me and you
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 5:39 PM
yeap
happy birthday to delle !
i'm online early today
woke up like 6 something
parents went to malaysia today
one day of freedom
but yeah
cant make much out of it
couldnt get back ta sleep
so i just stayed awake
till now
might just have lunch with my aunt then
yahs
things are settled
but how well it'll move on
i wont know
but somehow it wont be the same
i'm sure
but still thanks
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 9:03 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
ihavealreadythoughtofwhatiwanted
beforethathappened
iwassocloseinclearingthingsup
andnowiseriouslydontknowwhatishoulddo
lifeisamess
iamlostindarkness
cantfindthelighttobringmeouttahere
ijustwantedtobehappy
smileeachday
andknowthatsomeonecares
iamtired
ispenteverydaythinking
thereisntanyonethere
theydontunderstandhowifeel
theysaidtheycared
butiknowthattheywereallalongagainstit
butthisismylife
idecideonmyownhowiwannaliveit
idonotneedpityfromanyone
pleasestopdestroyingmylifeforme
cosicanttakeitanymore
ijustwantedtobewithyou
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:34 AM
it's time i blogged
been a long time aye
saved entries in here
but never posted them
sighs
anyways
past few days fer me
didnt go that well
oh wells
thats life aint it
been thinking alot
yeaps
i skipped school today
didnt want to go
and mum allowed
even without thinking twice
ha
got back some of my prelims result
werent good at all
super disappointed
not that i didnt study
just felt numb when i saw my mark
i didnt know how to react
i even failed maths
which is one of the most important subjects
i am like so dead now
fear of letting mum know the results
gosh
now see how terrible life is
speechless
sigh
enough said
i'm outta here
take care
well if anyone is interested
on what is typed below
and if you dont know
which i am sure everyoing would
just highlight the thing
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:06 AM
Monday, September 20, 2004
shall sleep after i'm done with this.
went to holland v ta study with yvonne today..
gosh, i've been seeing her fer straight 7 days can.
it's nice having her company, really.
been laughing all day can.
hmm at least we did study.
better than lazing at home right.
i wont study that way.
hate to be home sometimes.
when i got hoe today.
dad had ta make a great fuss bout being home late.
yah was dinner time.
so ?
you guys could have dinner first.
end up.
no one was at the dinner table.
except fer him, mich and myself.
the rest were facing the tv screen.
stewpid.
oh wells.
cant be the least bothered.
tomorrow they're all having dinner out.
aunt's birthday.
it's only left mich and i.
shall i have dinner out ?
hmmmm dinner, anyone ? (:
yahs.
it's gonna be chemistry paper tomorrow.
hope it's gonna be alright ?
the whole prelims wasnt that well.
sighs.
anyways shall off the computer.
and try ta get some rest.
take care everyone.
nights.
feeling cold tonight
just needed your hug
to keep me warm
and your kisses
sealed in my heart
i wanna sleep beside you
watching over you
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 12:25 AM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
questioned .
silence is all thats between us
what more can i ask for
then just to be right beside you
cos we dont realise the value
until we lost it
‮missingyou
yesterday .
didnt go ta school. cos i dont have any paper. dropped a subject. so yah. getta wake up a lil later than usual. had tuition in da morning. at 0900 till nearly 1200. was a long tuition. yahs. had lunch at home. then walked to buona vista mrt station. supposed to get my ez link done. but they said that the photo had to be taken in school uniform. gosh. the last time i did it which was on 31st may. they let me use that one. and now tell me cant. so yahs. didnt manage ta do it. need ta go back again. on monday maybe. we'll see. i'm lazy lahs.
yups. took the mrt down to orchard. there i met yvonne. she wanted to eat. so yah. she ate. mich and i just sat there. went to specialist centre to collect my specs. no. it's not a new one. the same. yah. just got it changed a lil. yahs. went to the library ta study and yah. crapped a lil as well. left there at 7+. didnt need to go home early cos no one was home and there wasnt dinner either.
came back. before i could step into da house. i went out again. with my parents this time. wenta grab a bite. and then came home at 9 i think.
watched tv all da way plus study a tiny bit. but yah. without any use. cos i wasnt concentrating at all. went to bed about 12 something.
today .
woke up around 0645. had to go school for chinese prelims. yahs. how stupid. reached school around 0745 ? yah. went to the band room to find novelyn. but she wasnt there yet. so waited for her. and i ordered band photos too. the one fer the yearbook. it looked funnaye. mich and i were like the only oned laughing like mad lahs. fer the formal pic. was terrible i must say. who cares. and novelyn still didnt arrive when mr siew was asking the people in da hall to bring their bags out of da hall. i was darned worried. without a dictionary. i'm as good as dead. cos one thing. i'm a chinese idiot. yesh. i am. so i called her twice in total. sweeling found one dictionary from the band room too. novelyn finally arrived. and i ended up with two dictionaries instead. lent one to jia jin. yeapps.
i was like the last girl in my row. which was far behind. i had no one sitting beside. behind and diagonally beside me on four directions. only had germaine in front of me. was that good or bad huh ? gosh. both paper one and two werent that good. paper one. the letter part was still alright. composition. err. i dont know what ta say. just wrote a whole lot of rubbish to make it look long. horrid. and good thing i went pass the word limit of 300. hmmm. paper two. the first five words i had no idea how to write it. second part was ok. third. the forming sentence thing. wrote rubbish. except fer the last one i think. fourth part. cloze passege. i just picked the words i sorta knew. fifth part. i made a mistake already. gosh. sixth part. just copied and pasted the whole thing. last question. can get zero i think. tell you. that stewpid mr siew. was irritating. each time he picked up the mike. i would get a shock. damit. so hate him. making so much noice can. arghs.
kies. after the paper. went town again. with mich and yvonne. met mel ong fer a short while. then she went off. said her leg was hurting cos of the new shoe she wore. yahs. so we had lunch then walked. and studied at coffee club at wisma. steph came for awhile. she was gonna meet her friend. yeapps. was in town till 6+.
got home at 1850 i think. parents werent home. only fer brothers. one was bathing. the other happily snoring. yeaps. parents came home. had dinner. then sat awhile before bathing. and came online. yupps. here i am. that sorta completed my day. fer now. shall face the square nox later. and maybe some chemistry ? or tomorrow first. think about it later.
yupps
but fer now. i'm outta here. tired of staring at the computer screen. boring aye. so take care people. mug hard. just two more days of papers. see ya all.
i'm missing you
girl even though youre right here by my side
cos lately it seems
the distance between us is growing too wide
i'm so afraid that youre saying it's over
the last thing that i wanna hear
but if your heart's not in it for real
please dont try to fake what you dont feel
if love's already gone
it's not fair to lead me on
cos i would give the whole world for you
anything you ask of me I'd do
but I wont ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
if your heart's not in it
you say that you love me
but baby sometimes
you're just saying the words
if you've got something to tell me
dont keep it inside
let it be heard
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 9:45 PM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
mentally unstable .
i've looked for you all of my life
now that i've found you
we will never say goodbye
i cant stop this feeling
there is nothing i can do
cos i see everything when i look at you
right. finally. time fer an update. it's been a few days. gosh. been havine prelims. didnt get a chance to come online. computer had some problems too. anyways. recap fer the past few days then.
monday .
first official day of prelims. had social studies. didnt go that well. i just crapped my way through ? made up a story fer it. cos i didnt really study that much fer social studies. so yah. i'm bad at humanities. oh wells.
after the paper went town. had burger king. was with yvonne. mich. lu. phy and kar. yahs. and then yvonne. mich and myself went on to study at coffee club. the one in wisma. yeapps. studied till 5+. went ta popular to get some stuffs and headed home. took a nap. darned tired. yahs. watched a lil tv after dinner. and continued studying till around 10. watched the finale of friends ! gosh. was nice. hah. really. a pity if anyone missed that. cool. yupp. studied again. and went ta bed about 1 i think.
tuesday .
had mathematics paper 1. i didnt really have enough time. wasnt that good either. left out quite a number of questions. sigh. i must say that stc always gives difficult papers. right ? hah.
anyways. after the paper. went town again. with mich and yvonne. steph joined in fer lunch too. had yoshi. yupp. we studied at taka library. was freezing badly can. gosh. crapped alot too. yvonne and i kept laughing. hah. was fun. left there around 1630. went to cold storage ta get something and headed home. took a short rest. had dinner. some tv and then studied till 1 there about.
wednesday .
okay. third day of prelims. had goegraphy first then accounts paper 2. geography was difficult. wrote tons of rubbish in there again. like duh. yah. accounts was alright. not really all was okay though. well at least better than the mock. good thing was that i didnt stone there for long. gosh.
went town. again. with wai ling. steph and mich. had lunch at mos. yeaps. then studied at cine. steph left early. cos she was tired. heh. lazy arhs. jia lat. and it started ta rain quite heavily. didnt leave till 5. did the same when i got home. slept around 12. was tired.
today .
i had mathematics paper 2 and biology today. mathematics was difficult. didnt have enough time again. was really bad. hadta rush through the whole thing. left out a few questions. gosh. and the biology paper ? i dont know. seemed pretty easy. but i'm not a biology person. so yah. dont think i'd do that well fer it. yahs.
went town. again. for the fourth time in a week. witht he prelims going on. hah. cool. yahs. mich got her hair cut. was caught in the rain too. heavy rain. walked around. from far east all the way to cine. then went home about 5.
slacked the rest of today. been watching tv. from the 7pm show to singapore idol. then 9pm show. and results to singapore idol. hah. totally. cos i'm free tomorrow ! no papers. and i dont have ta go school. hah. but yah. gotta study fer chinese paper. on satuday ! boing. but hey. prelims are soon over. get ta take a break fer awhile. hah.
anyhows. the prelims. not much high expectations. cos i think i didnt study hard enough. and yah. i'm so dead. oh wells. totally not in the mood fer studying. and i dont know why. wont be suprised if i do badly. just gotta work fer the o's then. righty ? sigh.
yup. think i'll just end here. thats about it so far. till the next time. when i happen ta update. hah. kkie. lick fer the rest of the papers. take care.
theres more that i wanted
then just seeing you each day
cos it means nothing to me
by just seeing your presence
and not knowing how you feel
i wanna know where i stand
cos now i feel as though
i mean nothing at all
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:40 PM
Saturday, September 11, 2004
bored ! prelims ! hah .
okies. i'm like at my granz place right now. using the computer. hah. the com at home had a lil problem blogging. i think both the computers at home are like in a bad condition. hahs. jia lat. i dotnt know what happened. cant blog. hahs. only able to connect on msn and go blog surfing. hahs. horrid right ? was that to make me study rather than going online ? gosh. this is bad. hahas. anyhows. will start updating from err. wednesday ? yup.
wednesday
woke up around 11+. went town around 2+ i think. yeap. met dear. walked a lil and studied at heeren's spinellis. yup. or how ever you spell it. hahs. studied for nearly 2 hours i think. and walked again. left town close to 1830. took a train to city hall. hahs. that mrt idiot. she went to tanjong pagar ta meet her granz. while i wenta meet xiao wei. cheang and mich. they were like having dinner there. the rest came around 7. then we headed off the esplanade. went for a concert. trombone section thingy. was rather interesting. hehs. not that boring kie. let's see. mich. cheang. xiao wei. mardi. germaine. cecilia. novelyn. bee chng. yating. swee ling and chee hui went for the thing. yupps. we kept talking. or hah. gossipping ? gosh. they can really talk. haha. yahs. it lasted for about 2 and a half hours there about. novelyn. germaine. cecilia. xiao wei. cheang. mardi. mich and myself went to tiong market. cos germaine was hungry. hahs. the others went home. geral came too. yeaps. went home about 11+. talked on the phone and only slept at 4+ i think ? was watching the tv. hahs. kkies.
thursday
woke up at 11 something again. bathed and stuffs. went town ta meet steph and mel ong. they ate at cafe cartel. yahs. wanted to watch movie at cine. but there wasnt anymore tics. so we walked to lido with neng and her friend too. bought tickets to a cinderella story at 5pm. yupps. we went to mac cafe outside isetan. studied till 1650. and then went for the move. lasted for about an hour 45 minutes ? yah. i think so. the movie was nice. i liked it. hahs. and neng said she teared. heh. yeapps. neng and mel went to walk. while stpeh went home. mich and i went on to mich ching's house. hahs. made them wait fer us for an hour at the bus stop at her house. hahs. oops. i didnt know they would be there for so long. kkie. stayed there for awhile. they played water bomb thing. yahs. and germaine had ta aim me. gosh. we ran like mad lahs. think we both ran the most can. hah. but was fun lahs. not that bad though. haha. yups. left there about 9+ i think. we went tiong macs cos mich wanted to grab a bite. yahs. stayed there for quite some time. geral met us too. hahs. went off at 2150. yeapps. reached home in time for the results to singapore idol. the ending part only. hahs. yahs. then talked on the phone till 1+ i think. didnt take notice of the time. yahs. slept around 2+.
friday
yesh. finally friday. bare with me. it's ending soon. hah. but if you were bored. you would have just went on to someone else's diary. hahs. right. anyways. i woke up close to 12 this time. hah. terrible. luckily may si called. haha. left home for harbourfront about 1 something. i cant remember. yahs. had yoshi fer lunch and went macs ta study. mel ong came too. yahs. stayed there for about 4hours ? hahs. long eh. but i dont think i wanna study there. cos it's noisy. maybe it's the holidays. hah. i dont know ? seems pretty crowded. hahs. headed home around 1845. came back to find my house sho quiet. haha. the only time i was home early. my parents werent home for dinner and my brother was sleeping. the other one was out. hah. boring. had dinner with mich and rotted at home. flipping the tv channels. was on the phone for awhile too. parent didnt come home till 1am i think. hah. should have just had dinner outside or something. haha. oh wells. io slept around 2. was tired.
today
right. finally. hmms. woke up much earlier today. mum woke us up. hah. went town. to the optician first. the thrice a month thing. yahs. and met my grandparents. aunt and cousins fer lunch. was a stressful one. hah. noiseh. haha. yahs. and walked round town a lil and now. i'm here ! haha.
gotta mug hard tomorrow. prelims are like on monday can. i'm like no where near done from mugging. i'm sho dead. damn.
anyways. i'll just here kies ? think i typed alot ! hah. relieved ? i'm done updating. hahs. (:
alrighty. take care then ! smile ! i'm outta here.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 5:21 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
enough said .
right. so i'm like finally blogging. just came out of the shower not long ago.
day was alright. studied a lil. as in really little. cant even concentrate. but i did try. just that. i couldnt ? i'm just so dead can. whatever. i cant be bothered about studying now ? i'm so gonna screw things up for my prelims.
left home about 4. went down town. was mich ching's birthday. so went to get her something. yahs. was running superly late can. mat up with may si and mardi too. got what we wanted and headed for school. supposed to be there for like 5pm. but we only reached at 5.45 pm. great. everyone was like calling us when we on the bus can. oh wells. nd xiao wei happily locked herself up in the toilet. we tried different ways to unlock the door. mich and i took turns climbing 5chairs to unlock that door. and yah. she eventually came out. after a long time. at least i hope things are fine now ? yahs. we just tried to have fun. thats just us i think ? dont know. i got quite a number of things from the juniors. thanks alot yah ? love them all. really.
yup. left school at 7pm. and went to town again. with dee. mardi. xiao wei. cheang and mich. mardi wanted to get something. and she took a long time to decide. i left around 8.30pm i think ? yah and came back in time for tv.
will be going for some trombone concert thing tomorrow night. hope it's nice ? will be studying before that i think. yeaps. shall just end here yahs.
take care !!
thanks everyone for today. and sorry to xiao wei for coming down late ! smile ok ? love you.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:43 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
pics uploaded !
uploaded the pics to be yourself day .
go check it out . (:
be yourself day .
06082004 - 09082004
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 5:17 PM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
all the best to those taking their english prelims tomorrow ! (:
haveyourealisedthatbyhurtingyourself.
youhurtmetoo?
doubtyoueverthoughtofit.
ineverknewwhatyourproblemswere.
onlyothersknew.
ijustfeltuseless.
cantijustreplacethatblade.
orwhateveryouusedtohurtyourselfandventyourangeron.
cosihatetoseeyouhurtyourself.
therearemanypeoplewhocare.
andmanyotherswhoarefarmoreimportant.
i'mnothingcomparedtothem.
orratherjustwiththatstatus.
whatmorecaniaskfor.
thentohaveyou.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:44 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
thoughts .
yesh. blogging again. it's the start of september. fast eh. we're in the third quarter of the year. which means. 2004 is ending soon. the big exams are coming. and prelims are just in weeks ! and i'm graduating soon too. sigh. sad eh. 5years of being a theresian is coming to an end. oh gosh.
anyhows. update then. hmmm. woke up late today. actually woke up a few times. got outta bed only at 11+. was running late. supposed to be out by then. but yeah. nevermind.
i got to town about 1. wenta cine to meet mel ong , steph and one of steph's friend. which i till now. do not know the name. hah. they were having lunch there. yeapps. after they were done with eating. steph and her friend wenta watch movie while mich , mel and myself went shopping. was tiring. walked for a really long time can. went to heeren. then to centrepoint. mich got something for herself for graduation. then walked to ps. mel wenta meet her aunt get something. walked there a lil and then met steph again. we went to taka. saw yvonne and sok yum there. walked there a lil too. mel got something for graduation. i got a top too. but not for graduation. yeaps. went to wisma and then to heeren. mel bought a pair of heels. and we walked all the way to far east. i bought something for graduation. and my shopping was completed. finally. after some donkey years. shopping is horrible. thats when you cant find what you want. hah. was darned tired. came back only at 8+ going 9 can. imagine how much we walked. hah. town can be interesting kie. hah. oh goodness. legs hurt badly.
think i'm gonna trim my hair tomorrow. while mich go find her stuffs. i'm getting some things too. yeapps. it's town-ing again. gawd. but i need to be home early though. cant stay out much. english papers are on friday !! die. i'm worried. cant do badly for prelims. after all that shopping. i better start mugging hard.
right. i'm tired now. need ta go rest. hopefully i wont be half dead tomorrow. hate schooling. darn. yups. enough for now yah. take care people !
[[imissyou]]
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:55 PM