Thursday, October 28, 2004
true starrr .
heya. i just came back home from holland village not long ago. went studying fer a lil while. was with dee. mellie. and mich. they left early so yeah. i left early too. wanna come back watch tv later lahs. heh. thursday is like tv day kinda thing. right.
yeappps. and today i wenta school. like finally. was kinda fun ?. yeah. was really nonsense. i slacked all the way can. if i'm not wrong. i did not attend a single lesson at all. was outside class all the while. coolness. ever since morning. i only went back to take my things. teachers came into class but i stayed out. so hadta like avoid the teachers. so maluating lah. ask people come block us. and juli's sister was scary can. she just came up to me and spoke softly into my ear. asking what were we doing outside. i thought who was that can. wah totally. was with different people at different lessons. there was char. dee. jill. my xiao didi was there most of the time. think she could vomit blood asking me bout chinese. my goodness.
it was like on off raining today. and the rain was never heavy. like nonsense can. but the weather was cooling. we ate like loads of junk too. which is good. i'm like loosing my voice. dee happily ate though she had a sore throat can. jia lat.
after school went harbourfront then to holland with dee and mich. was quite a long journey there. yeapps. almost slept can. so met mel there. i was doing maths again. i wanna pass my maths this time. or i sure die one lor. hate it. cant be bothered with that stupid social studies. and chinese. i think i can forget bout it too. i so hate that. i'm not a language and humanities person. hah.
and tomorrow is like the last day of school. as in really last day. gosh. like after 5 years. i'm leaving. it's sad in a way. a few good points. thats like i'm getting outta this uniform after 11 long long years. finally ! yeah. and no more school rules fer me. dont hafta stay away from mr sng. hah. but gonns miss so much of stc life. yeapps. sad-en-ing lahs. oh wells. gotta move on.
yupps. shall end off here fer now. i'm done updating fer the day. i would be going to school tomorrow. since it's the last day. and it ends early too. yupps. so i'm outta here fer now ! take care .
oh and wanru !! thanks loads fer the perfume yes ? i love it ! heh. thanks alot alot kie. gosh. i feel bad lahs. hmmm. will find something fer you too. okok ? smiles. thanks loads. hugs.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 6:21 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
run away .
i didnt go to school again. yeah. and i think yvonne is angry with me. she msged and said that i was a liar. fine. she win. i did say i might be going. so yah. liar then.
good thing i didnt go. cos heard the fire emergency thing was like fer the whole morning. waste time. and 5MM had only 4 people present. coolness.
yeap. will go study again later. it's like another 4 more days before the first paper. and i didnt study fer the first paper yet. oh wells.
should i go watch the band perform ? i'd love to. shall study first before going then.
and i think sesame street i cute. ha. right. gotta go now. take care people.
If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:32 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
yeah whatever .
i didnt go school today. woke up real early. bad bad morning. yesterday was horrid too. damn. like as if today is any beter. it's like so obviously biased against me okay. 17 years. and i'm used to this damn life. said i'd loose out in something. what.family ? fark .
do what you want to. i dont owe anyone a living.
i cant be bothered.
i still hate today .
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 3:19 PM
Monday, October 25, 2004
arsenal finally LOST .
okay.
i'm no manchester united supporter or what so ever.
but hey i'm happy cos.
they beat arsenal 2-0 !
and they also broke arsenal's unbeaten record.
coolness man.
see the joy in there ?
goodness.
thatx like so nonsense okay.
but who cares.
it's late.
i'm tired and therefore i tend to talk nonsense.
hahs.
what rubbish.
anyways.
it's really late now.
and i think i should be sleeping soon.
i'm tired cos i slept really late the night before.
like 0430 can.
totally.
couldnt really study today.
was very blurred.
yeapps.
a quick update.
wasnt in a good mood actually.
but i'm pretty much fine now.
hehs.
i went down holland v today fer study.
was with mel ong and steph and of cos mich.
studied ss.
and i think i'm gonna complete it soon.
hopefully to pass it ?.
yeah.
juli came around 5plus going 6.
steph left at 6.
mel wenta meet her mum fer dinner too.
mich, juli and i left at 7.
didnt really study alot.
was really sleepy.
hahs.
came back had dinner.
slacked and went online.
talked on the phone, watch tv.
and yeah.
decided to update.
hah.
okies.
this shall be it fer now.
shall go ff then.
take care people.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:09 AM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
tired !!
okay. i'm waiting for my hair to dry right now. then i'm gonna sleep. super tired and sleepy can. long long long day today. hah.
lets see. wenta school today. the timetable changed. so irritating lahs. school should originally end at 2. but this emergancy talk thing dragged till bout 3. not bad eh. yeah. school was super boring. phy didnt go school. so as usual. i sat alone fer the whole day. used to it. yeapps. did my own work and all. and i received a cut pink tortise from xiao didi and chocolates plus a box of folded cranes and glow in the dark stars from wanru. heh. it's really nine. smiles.
i didnt go fer assembly till the last 5 minutes. cos like this cleaner's ankle was bleeding damn badly. due to a vein burst. goodness me. it was horrid okay. good thing we took our own sweet time to go to the hall. or else we wot see that can. so yeah. charlene. yee wai and myself wenta get the first aid and stuffs. called fer teacher's help. ended up phoning the ambulance which took ages to come. terrible. yupp. so by the time everything was settled. we only got to the hall 5 minutes before everyone was released.
after school went town with mich and juli. then yvonne came after her social studies lesson. had pasta fer lunch today. then went down far east fer haircut. like finally can. hah. mia called up and asked if we wanted to go fer the singapore idol result show thing. so we all went. plus mia and gerrie. was cool. and yes we were on the second row. if you were watching the tv at home. you would have seen us. gosh. malu lah !! and maia was eliminated can. kinda not expected lahs. oh wells. was by votes. so no comments bout that.
we stayed there fer quite some time. plus it was also raining. so ended up cabbing home cos it was late and i am tired. took a long time fer us to get a cab cos everyone wanted one too. thanks to the bad weather. and the long route out of mediacorp. hah.
reached home then i bathed and ate something cos i was feeling hungry. hah. and watched some tv. now decided to come online fer a short while since the tv is boring. heh.
yeapps. this shall be it fer now. end here yes. take tons of care !!
[u]Nice`9 - yeapps. ling me. =) and erm whats your address ? i'll link you too ..
wAnru - thanks fer the gifts yeah ?! heh. it's nice. thanks. takecare too ! see ya.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:37 AM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
-
happy birthday
charlene
and
denise
yeapps.
yesterday and today is marking day. so we need not go to school. offically that is. hah. and i skipped school on tuesday. was lazy. anyways. a quick update bout whats been happening.
had chemistry and biology practical on monday. was real screwed. chemistry was bad. biology was still erm alright ? yeapp. we had to stay back in the theatreatte fer a long time. there was this check. cos some incident happened. yeahs. we were released like close to 3. waited fer juli at the bus stop. then went tiong with she. yee wai and gerrie. had lunch. went to the carpark opposite whilst waiting fer mich to come meet us. yeah.
tuesday. i stayed home fer most of the day. except fer lunching with my parents. yeahs. didnt do much. except fer mugging and the usuals. boring day. heh.
yesterday went town. met geral. wenny. jenny. tiff and dee. was at ljs studying. saw many people in town too. jing and lu. hahs. okok. went off like 1730 to the library at taka to meet yvonne and mich. stayed there till 7+ then headed home.
today. it was raining when i woke up. kinda heavy. waited fer the rain to stop. went holland around 2+. met yvonne there. wenta study. juli came bout 5. wenta get something fer someone before going back. watched tv all the way can. singapore idol was good thius week. and olinda had to wear a dress can ! goodness me. sho CHIO aye. bleah. right right. switched to channel 8 fer 9pm show. then back to channel 5 fer oc. gosh.
yupp. back to school tomorrow again !! darned. hope it wont be that boring .. hah. when is it ever fun ?.. righty. shall end off here okay. take care people ! love. =)
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:11 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
replies .
angel - helllooo !!! hahs . =)
huG huG - you are ?!
novelyn - hahs. you're always bored when u tag me. hehs. righty. take care !
wAnru - heys. thanks fer the good luck yah. practical was horrid ... i'm so not gonna do well fer that !! anyways take care !
germaine - i tagged on your board . =)
who r u ??? - like in the first place . who are you ?!?! gosh.
It's the simple things in life we forget
You hear her talkin' but don't hear what she said
Why do you make something so easy so complicated
Searching for what's right in front of your face
But you can't see it
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:05 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
if only .
update !
yesterday .
wenta school. was darned boring. school everyday is the same. dont really have lesson. more like self study. yeahs.
after school had this english course thing. i was like dozing off to sleep. well. i didnt really fall asleep. hahs. and denyse was happily drawing my arm lahs.
after the english thing went town ta study with yvonne and mich. agnes and juli joined us fer awhile. yeapps. stayed at taka library till 7+. headed home after that. was tried.
came back didnt do much. just watched tv and talked on the phone. was lazy to do anything. hahs. slept close to 2am.
today .
woke up around 0945. then lazed around. ate breakfast bout 10+. talked on the phone fer quite some time before going to bathe. left home about 1245. took the same bus to town with yvonne.
went orchard control to meet geral. got writing paper from popular. headed to lips cafe to study. met many people in town today. studied till 5 ? i think so. wenta take neos and walked round town. met up with dee and jenny at ljs. saw my xiao di di also. hahs. left town at 1930. went great world to have dinner with parents. had jap food ! hah. dropped by aunt's place before heading back home.
reached back bout 11. washed up and all then here i am. yup. oh yah. the new tommy hilfiger fragrance , true star , is nice !!! hahas.
righty. i'm getting tired. shall have an early rest. will be studying tomorrow again.
anyhows. i'm done with updating. take care !!
i wanna stay away from the truth
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:39 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
have you ever .
yesh. so how's the new layout huh. was just looking though the blogskins. thought i'd just use that for now. seems nice. heh.
right. school today was boring. the art girls have been busy doing their art work. pity them. had ss in da morning. didnt pay attention. cos she had ta use a green marker. and i couldnt see a thing. gosh. stewpid can. yeah. then was maths. there was a timetable clash with the mm girls. think tomorrow also. our maths slots were mixed. yup. had chemistry. got back the sji paper we did. wasnt too bad. then was recess. after which was english. she went through some comprehension answers. last was biology. i didnt exactly pay full attention. was sleepy. that time of the afternoon fer naps. ha.
after school. stayed outside class fer a long time. talked and all. was nonsense. made a few trips to the canteen. and once to the bandroom. and mr yeo chased me outta bandroom. we were supposed to have biology lesson. but was cancelled. cos the teachers were having this so called feast. ha. catered food. yeap. finally decided to leave school bout 2plus.
went to tiong fer lunch with juli. phy. lu ying. wei ling. yee wai. mich. mia went home. had ljs. yee wai got her ear pierced. again. ha. walked round tiong fer awhile then phy and lu went off. we walked to the playground near yee wai's place. ha. played there can. feel like a kid. heh. fun !! made two friends too. ha. gosh. we played catching can. was fun okay. not childish alright. ha. left there only like 1830. crapped loads too ! i'm loosing my voice. ha.
waited a long time fer the bus. got home close to 1930. yeaps. bathed. had dinner and watched singapore idol. did a tiny bit of geog and here i am ! ha. theres chinese to do. but i doubt i'll touch it. theres chem too. practical is on monday.
but fer now. it's oc. ha. shall mug later.
shall be off now. take care !!
vaL`` - heys !! ha. i got the sixtyfiveLOVESyou thing from one of the templates. heh. anyways. luck fer ur papers yeah. take care !! see ya.
novelyn - hahs. nice butterflies. =)) take care yeah. luck fer ur papers !
wAnru - thanks loads fer the M yeah. it's really nice. =) heh. take care. and luck fer ur papers.
michelle stArLoaDer - hey. how can u not like butterflies. they are nice kie. hahs. take care too ! luck fer the papers. see ya round.
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:43 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
once loved .
i just found out that the posts cant be read from the archieves. damn. but who cares. i'll just type fer the fun of it. till i figure out how to get this fixed.
oh wells. been home early fer yesterday and today. err about 3 ? yeaps. guai aye. i need serious studying. motivation please ? yeah.
almost couldnt get outta bed yesterday. cos i was sho sleepy. slept nearly at 2. and i wasnt mugging. been talking on da phone can. but good thing i wasnt sleepy in class. sat with dee yesterday. nothing much lahs. after school had this talk. some law thing. yeahs. went home after school. had tuition. then mugged a lil. did maths. then talked again. hah. this time was much shorter. cos i was kinda tired.
today. school is no different lah. spent most of today outside class. doimg some. sat with germaine today. but most of the time we werent at our seats. barely sat there fer a period. goodness. well havent been doing that much. hmm except fer maths. cos she keeps teaching. non stop can. haiyos. yah.
went fer geog after school. forced by mrs chua. but at least i learnt something. and the mrs chua. so turn off lahs. shes darn disgusting okay. like totally. goodness me. shant go into details. heh. came back after that with mich and juli. i slacked all da way. was tired. shall catch up on work at night again.
right. thats about it soon. maybe i shall hunt fer some template to take over this first. then try fix it sometime when i'm free. yeaps. thats all fer now !
take care people.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 5:18 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
confusion .
i know. the entries arent showing. but i'm just updating. ta see if anyone wil happen to look at it. dumb. but yeah. who cares.
life hasnt been that well. but what more can i ask for. life aint that simple.
so school today. was really bad. boring yah. had pe in da morning.was alright. played this caterpillar game thingy. yupp. charlene and i wenta take a bath after pe. missed quite a lil of biology. i missed almost the whole thing. yeah. cos cheryl wanted dictionary. which was with michelle. ha.
yeah. had maths too. was boring. she went through some questions. again. after which was recess. then free all da way till school ended. what crap. going school fer nothing. darn.
spent da whole afternoon with juli. yvonne and mich at taka library. we laughed. crapped and yes. studied too ok. left town bout 1830.
came back bathed. had dinner and rot-ted.
thatx about it fer monday.
take care .
itsjustgoingnowhere
whyholdotosomethingthatwasevermine
igaveitthetry
idontknowhythingshadtaturnoutthisway
butloveaintthateasy.
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:26 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
she will be loved .
wells. today school was darned boring can. morning had chemistry. which we just did tys and more tys questions. yeah. then was pe. was alright. denyse and i were like talking all the way can. bout people and relationships. totally. anyways we played thing dog and bone game. goodness. was a lil nonsense can. thank goodness we didnt have punishment lah. and hwee peng was funnaye alright. violent. hah. right. after pe was recess. then accounts. which mrs wong didnt come. and charlene and i were happily late. hah. at least we didnt get into trouble coming to class all wet and late. mrs chua just yeah. stared. then was english did comprehension. again. like everyday is the came thing can. boring ! and after which was biology. was free as well. cos ms wong went back home. so just did a lil work. chinese i was half dead. sorta slept for a sort while. bad headache. and was pc. went round da school looking fer mr yeo to get the cca form signed. hopefully i'll get a a1. yeah.
after school. went fer geography lesson. didnt really do much. mrs chua just talked to us bout our prelims. after that went with yvonne and michelle to have lunch and then met steph and mel at holland to study. i completed a comprehension plus some chemistry. and juli came to meet us too. was darned funnaye. yeah. left bout 830 i think. came back for a light dinner. then bathed and watched tv. was tired. didnt do any studying. yeaps. thats my day. oh and yvonne wrote me something. heh. was nice. hah.
alright. i think i shall turn in early today. feeling sleepy. plus having a really bad headache now. sighs. so yup. end here kkies. take care people.
without you where do i belong. without you how can i go on.
girl. i've been thinking bout you. but it seems.
the feelings we shared. is lost.
and i just know that i'm missing you badly.
i cant breahte easy. cant sleep at night. until you're by my side.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:08 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
tuesday .
monday .
i didnt go ta school. wasnt well in the morning. and mum let me not go to school. so yeah. stayed home. woke up the usual time. went back to sleep bout 730. and woke up again at 9 something. yeah. lazed around. went online for quite some time. then started studying. did chemistry.
yeah. mich came back. bought me something. wenta meet mel and steph at holland v starbucks. studied till around 8 and went back. had dinner and watched tv. right till i went to bed. terrible ? thats my life man.
tuesday .
today today. i went ta school. yes. it was boring. lessons were normal. and i tried hard to concentrate. hah. i tried ? anyhows. i did ok. though i just said nonsense. but who cares.
oh and i ad gummies from my nu er !! aka germaine !! hahs. -smiles- thanks alot kie ? love- heh. sho sweet can. but yeah. most of it was like eaten up by others. heh. but still thanks alot !
yup. after school went town with wai ling. mich and my little devil. newly found little devil. hah. yeahs. went ceni have lunch. crapped a lil. and went back home.
had tuition today. was darned tired. half dead can. totally. yeah. did the usuals after tuition. just completed my homework before coming online. and yeah. i'm tired already.
shall just end here kie ? yup. take care !!
-replies
phy[31] - you arh. i wanna box your face !! cheat my feelings lah. never come school. dont come till o levels. better. leave me to sit alone right. you winner !! hahs . and yeah. you happily go watch your american idol concert. i am jealous ! hmph ! bleah.
shirley - ?! huh .
luie//cousin - yes. school starts at 2.30 fer you. another one. shoo lazy. dont come school. i miss you cousin !! hahs. (:
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:15 PM
Monday, October 04, 2004
befuddled .
why did i love you this much. when it's just hurt that was brought down to me. those words you said. how much i belived it them. now it just cuts me deep inside. the scar so deep. that would never be healed again.
i thought that you could be the one. but now. it's just like a dream. nothing was real. i deceived myself too much. i've been lying my whole life. i had enough. i just wanna be the person for myself. and not others.
what if i never wake up tomorrow. would anyone even realise that i am gone. would i even know how important i was in your life. cos you were. more important than anyone else. and will i be able to hear you say that you love me. hear it from your heart. cos i did. i loved you.
those days are gone and i want you so much. the night is long and i need your touch. dont know what to say. i never meant to feel this way. dont wanna be alone tonight.
i tried my best to make this happen. but it's bringing me no where. i'm thankful that i had you in part of my life. you made me believe that i could love again. you were there whenever i needed someone. helped me through my darkest moment. i never thought i could find love once more. until i met you. you changed my thoughts. you were that special one. someone different from others i knew. i didnt ask for much. than to be with you.
i will never find another lover sweeter than you. sweeter than you. and i will never find another lover more precious than you. more precious than you.
well nothing can be perfect. every fairytale has its ending. and i lived this dream long enough.
cos here in my heart. there's a picture of us. together forever. unfaded and unbroken. wherever you are. your love covers me. forever more you'll be. here in my heart.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:01 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
numb .
yeah. i'm watching tv. thought i'd give an update since mum just finished using the computer. was watching match. kinda sleepy though.
well. today woke up bout 10 something. had breakfast and watched some tv. and then wenta bathe. followed mum ta pick aunt up cos they were going some where was supposed to go. but didnt. mum sent me down to holland village.
met mel ong and yvonne there. then steph came too. wanted to go study at burger king. then end up going to coffee bean and finally settled at starbucks. hahs. so nonsense lahs. got something from there then started studying. i completed most of my undone homework. like finally can. gawd. tons to do. heh. took some rest in between. walked ta get some food. yeap. only left there like 2130. went to cold storage before heading home.
took a bath when i got home. had a late dinner. packed my stuffs fer school tomorrow. and then watched tv. and yeah. here i am. hahs.
wonder what will we be doing tomorrow. hopefully nothing boring. i dread going to school. sighs.
anyways. thats all fer now. i'm lazy. so yupps. take care people.
oh and goos luck to those taking their n level exams !!
i've become so numb
i cant feel a thing
that feeling's gone
i can never get it back
tell me what can I say
and where do I start
to pick up the pieces of
this broken heart
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:35 PM
there is something i miss
that aint the same no more .
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:06 AM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
saturday .
heys.
i came home like half an hour ago. gosh. was out with my parents plus aunt and cousin. hah.
woke up around 10 something. had breakfast. watched some tv. bathed then went out. went town ta meet them. did a lil shopping. bought a pair of jeans. hahs. yeah. then sat awhile for coffee. as usual they talked. left town to pick my other aunt. and went to hollandse club fer awhile. sat again. gosh. went han's at shanton way fer awhile too. yeahs. then pasir panjang fer dinner. waited fer both my brothers to come down fer dinner.
after dinner sent them all home. one at yishun. the other at clementi. only came home at like 1030. hahs. was darned tired. slept all the day in the car. cos i flt like puking. cant stand long rides. sure to feel horrid. so yeah. will just end up sleeping. hahs. lazy ? nahs.
will be going holland ta study with yvonne and mel ong tomorrow. need ta complete all my homework. and do some revision as well. it's less done a month more till o levels. cant waste much time. hahs. and i didnt study today. totally.
okay. gotta go off now. it's boring staying online. shall fin something else yeah. so take care. i'm outta here !
/eunica * - hahs. totally. age is catching up. even when i'm old. i might still wanna be a kid ta celebrate childrens day. hahs. you too ! hahs. take care .
novelyn - i tagged you ! =)
elly - you are ?! anyways. i tagged you too .
one last cry
before i leave it all behind
i gotta put you out of my mind this time
stop living a lie
i guess i'm down to my last cry
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:03 PM
Friday, October 01, 2004
patrons day .
righty. i just finished bathing not too long ago. gosh. i rushed back from town. cos my mum called. sounding pissed. ended up taking cab. to find her not at home. she went out can. waste my money on cab fare. wah lao eh. heh. ok. today's the start of october. which means it's just a month to o levels. gosh. so fast aye. gotta study hard man. hahs.
yup. today's patrons day. was alright. just that i was super tired in the morning and was having this bad headache too. yupps. think the passing of light was funnaye. cos the fan was blowing quite strong and the candle lights keep going off. but yah. managed to light it in the end. and yes. i walked out of the church with the candle still lit. cool. yeah. and we took photos. the usual lahs. even took while we were walking back can. hah. weather was real hot.
got back to school. darned tired. sat at the canteen fer a long time. crapped around and stuffs. yeah. had lessons. arghs. english. she just talked lahs. no lessons fer that. chinese. she went through those idioms again. accounts did theory. then the last hour. just slacked around. oh. and mrs fung made us cake ! yumms. was good. i love it. heh.
after school. went to steph's place fer awhile. she went ta get some things. and bathed too. yupp. got to town around four i think. went to taka. steph paid her bills. and then to ceni where we ate. yeap. left town around 530. gosh. shouldnt have rushed can. damnit.
and yeah. my phone is functioning well today. great. i dont hafta type in that retarded way. hah. feel dumb lahs. had a hard time kie. hehs.
okies. thats about it fer now. shall be off to watch some tv. so yeah. take care people !
i just cant help loving you
but i loved you much too late
i'd give anything and everything to hear you say
that you will stay
cos without you girl
life is incomplete
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 7:14 PM