Monday, November 29, 2004
wakeup .
i woke up early today. despite having a bad sleep fer the past few nights. i cant sleep larr. damn it.
anyhows. there are a number of people who's starting work today. ha. all the best then. i'm still jobless. and i'm still trying to get one. ha. oh wells. i dont wanna end up rotting.
my phone is corrupted okay. i cant stand it. it's irritating me. i had a hard time sms-ing alright. i hate it. i'm just gonna end up borrowing yvonne's cute sony ericsson phone. ha. thats fer laughing at it i guess. sighs.
okay. i thought i lost my camera or something. cos i cant seem to find it. but yea. it's at wei ling's place now. and i dont know when ever can i get it back. ha. slowly wait. cos she's working. till her off day first lorr. i've got things to pass to her too.
right. i shall be off now. i'm gonna walk around town aimlessly again. damn. oh wells. retribution please. sighs. take care then. i'm off.
.: i need ta get outta here
it's driving me nuts
i had enough of this
i said that i wont give in
but i was wrong
we were never fated
it was nothing but a lie
it was just a living dream
wake up and face reality :.
[edit]
i'm chao irritated okay. mum's nagging like nobody's business. like come on lah. i didnt do anything wrong can. wah lao eh. farking pissed off please. damn it. i wanna get outta this place.
i think i'm gonna get the stupid cough virus again. stupid. throat's feelin weird. gosh. oh wells.
today went town with yvonne. walked alot. had pasta fer lunch. walked the whole of heeren. then part of paragon. whole of far east. ha. then wisma. met mel and acconpanied her fer her break. then walked some more. taka too. and ceni then to centrepoint fer awhile. ha. just kept walking larr. but was alright larr. didnt but much. but saw alot of things that i like. wheeee. gotta create a shopping list soon. get cash and i'll go on a shopping spree. i need to do something. that wld make me feel better. heh.
hmmm. guess i wasnt fated enough to see girlfriend today. ha. she's funnaye please.
i have to wake up super early tomorrow. like 7+. gotta go do something. fingers crossed. ha.
and my trip to hog kong has been postponed again. nort sure if it's confirmed this time. was told that i wld actually be leaving on the 16th of december. but now ten days later. which means 26th december. not sure if it's confirmed fer this one though. gotta ask again.
yeah. wenta visit my grand dad again today. he's in the hospital. yeapp. hope he will be fine soon.
anyhows. gotta go now. takecare.
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m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:55 AM
Saturday, November 27, 2004
bittersweet .
yeapps. i'm shag now. but i cant seem to fall asleep no matter how i try. i shall just give an update bout graduation and prom then. it's like a come and go thing. fast. after a long wait.
morning started out just okay. i hated the nagging part i tell you. i got to school around 0715. got straight to change and sprayed my hair a lil too. phy got caught and was sent home. lu didnt come cos she overslept.
so got changed and went up to the audi with charlene and pamela. and then the horrid nagging started. darned irritating please. it took a long time too. got us arranged and headed to the hall. had the usual prayer thing. speeches and all larr. the certificate ceremony was alright. shook mrs suppiah's hand. cos she's like the guest of honour. and i had to get another pair of heels. and they were so high. goodness me. i was worried larr. mrs suppiah laughed and said that i need not bother bout belts anymore. or how ever i wore them. heh. funnaye. the whole thing ended before noon. i hung round school fer awhile and the band room. talked to germaine. cheang and mardi before leaving fer home.
got back. bathed. packed. changed. and cabbed to the hotel fer check in. got our rooms and the first thing they did was to jump on the bed. goondess me. typical thing i'd do too. hahs.
walked over to wei ling's room down the road to talk and supposedly pick up some stuffs. but didnt cos they asked me to change there instead. so met erzi to go ps. she needed to get flowers. yupp. so took a walk there. after which i went back to my room and got my clothes. walked back to wei ling and co's room to get changed. erzi went back to her room to change.
okay. the changing part. was funnaye. you should see how they change. everyone would be busy adjusting and having their make up on. i just took my time. they gan jiong okay. wei ling did my make up. and so did hui ling. plus a lil bit here and there from the rest. was comical alright. alright and i wore a tube dress. besides the school uniform. it has been some donkey years since i last wore one. ha. oh wells. i left early to meet azure and charlene. we took an ultra long time to get there. dont ask why.
got to tanglin club. took pics and all. the usuals ? ha. thats what we love doing please. what else right. heh. got our places. some were left without any seats. long story. hated that part okay. anyhows. there were like lucky draw. talent thingy. mr sng sang okay. i got the recording !! haha. -evil- bleah. once in a life time what. okay. many things happened larr. was walking around most of the time. the only time i sat still was the first plate of food we had. ha.
ok. andre. mich. gerrie and myself went back to the room first. and got changed. went over to phoenis hotel to pick wei ling and yee wai. gerrie changed too. i changed shoes and went to meet juli. supposed to watch movie. but the one we wanted to watch was unavailable. so we cabbed down to monks with this guy called ying bin ? i dont know the spelling.
got there said hi to a few people. walked over to chocolate bar. said hi. waited fer the others to arrive. they got in and we went back to monks. sat outside fer quite some time then decided to go in. yes yes tell me why did i go in. ha. anyhows i didnt really stayed in fer that long. kept going out. prefered outside somehow. yeap. so sat outside drinking. most of the time the bottle was snatched away. haiyos. anyways. it was just in and out fer me larr. i wasnt that in a perfect mood. thinking too much i guess. well at least i was still okay larr. erzi !! you better take care alright. heh.
got back to the room bout 3 plus. juli and ying bin went with me. yup. i bathed and went down fer a walk. wanted food. got to 7-11 to look fer food. then went back. andre left too. they ate and slept. i didnt want to share the bed with them. so ended up on the chair. stayed awake fer a long time. fell asleep fer a short while and woke up shivering. goodness me. so i ended up awake again. hahas. fer a long long time until they woke up. i hid under the blankie. hahas. jia lat.
i washed up. went over to phoenix hotel again. passd them their things waited fer them to pack. then went to my room packed. and checked out. walked to mandrin hotel. went up fer ahwile passed pam something then off fer lunch with my aunt. after done with lunch. supposed to meet wei ling. but ended up didnt. went over to pam there again. this time passing geral something. and went to meet my brother. waited fer him fer a long time and finally got home. chao tired. couldnt sleep cos i had dinner outside. haiyos. so now i'm home. not tired or sleepy. stupid.
long two days yes ? and o's just ended only four days ago. it felt damn long. anyhows. it was a great two days spent. something memorable i suppose. i finally graduated from stc officially. something i looked forward to. but now. come to think of it. i dont wish to leave. so many people that i wont see till maybe i get my results. or bump into them on the streets. thats life aint it. it has to move on. well the prom was just the end of another phrase of life. i'm thankful to the people who helped me along the way. to those friendships i have. all the way from primary school till now. and the once in secondary school. i'll treasure every lil bit. be it good or bad. all these changed my life alot. i learnt the right and the wrong. the good and the bad. many things. sighs. i hate to part from this. well well. we gotta move on. or we'll be going nowhere. agree ? i wish everyone all the best fer the future. and hoped you had a great prom. we cant say friends forever. cos there aint forever. but do keep in contact. yeap.
guess thats it fer the time being. loads to reflect on. many things to do too. yep. please do take lotsa care. love.
it's hard saying this goodbye
cos i never want all these to end
just like that
parting is a heartache
as it's just memories we're left with
i wish somehow
we never needed to go our seperate ways
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 9:54 PM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
i'm chao tired please .
alright. i'm tired. hah. had a long day.
sarted with waking up early fer school. was darned stupid. only went to like get class photos. shouldnt have went okay. cos the testimonials werent done and stuffs. so yeah. left school around 10 i think. dont remember.
went jurong. ha. fer a swim. gosh. i have quite a not really nice tan. but still i did get darker. oh wells. it's better than nothing right. hah. was there fer like nearly two hours. my stamina is real bad okay. goodness.
went to town after that. got there at 2. had marche fer lunch. was filling. ha. walked over to clippers to ger my hair done. was a long long time there kie. gosh. and phy got her hair shaved at another salon. jia lat. looks okay lahs. weird the first time but it was better. ha. yes yes. i dyed my hair red. but not that red. it took an ultra long time can. had to wear this thing over the head lahs. looked like an idiot. they were there laughing at me non stop. stupid. but at least i do not share the same hair colour with everyone else. ha. mich. lu and phy got theirs dyed too. but in different ways. yeap.
went on walking with erzi. charlene and azure. left the rest at clippers. yup. walked to scotts then to wisma. then taka. supposed to meet denyse and she landed herself at ps. so we hadta go there. charlene and azure went off. erzi suggested that we walk. but in the end we hopped onto a bus. ha. saw lynn and jia yi walking. they were waving like mad lah. noticed them from inside the bus. cuteness. so yeah. met denyse and passed her the present. erzi chose it. heh. good she liked it. haha. hmmm. then we headed back home. tired.
i'm like burning hot please. goodness. anyhows. i think thats it fer a day. i need to get prom clothes. die. not enough time. big problem now. shall think of something then. ha.
shall be off then. alrighty. take care people. tata.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:32 PM
freedom .
happy
birthday
denyse
and
mardi
alrighty. since it's passed midnight. so yeah. wish them then. heh.
so finally the whole o levels thing is over. which means that my life in stc is also over. coolnes. ive been waiting to get out of this uniform fer a long time now. like eleven years. ha. but still memories. hmmm. i'll miss secondary school life though. oh wells. thats life aye.
the biology paper ? was an okay only can. i didnt study what came out. rather those that i thought would. then i studied. bad bad. but it's over. so the next step is just to wait fer results. yes ? ha.
after the papers didnt really do much. was raining badly. totally spoilt the mood. some said it was showers of blessings. what nonsense. was tired to even go anywhere. just went town fer awhile. checked out something. then waited fer mich to go back home fer a long long long time. was darned tired okay. stupid. retribution people say. sighs. but this is worse. ferget it.
next few days would be busy i guess. theres loads to catch up on. recreational stuffs please. hah. shall just look forward fer the long break then. need to get a job too. hahs. i wont be just sitting home and rotting my time away. will be going out with charlene and azure tomorrow. go shopping. and i should be meeting up with er zi on thursday cos she's free. would be doing some shopping too i guess. ha. need ta get something lah.
we got the hotel room. gonna be at the same place as the 'ah lian gang'. hah. hopefully it's confirmed. gotta double check first.
yupp. and my house phone is down. stupid. only left with the fax one. it was alright in the morning. now no one can call through. my brother claims it's our fault. what rubbish. i was hardly ever home can.
yeap. think thats it fer now. i'm lazy to type any further. i'm just bored thats why i blogged. ha. so yeah. takecare people. and enjoy ya holidays alrighty. see ya all then.
germaine - nuer ! you are finally back aye. hoped you had loads of fun yes ? i missed you tons !!! hahahs. loveloads. do takecare. and i'll see you soon ? hopefully. heh. smiles !!
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:27 AM
Monday, November 22, 2004
one more paper (:
happy
birthday
geralyne
okay. i'm itching all over please. waiting to bathe now. goodness.
anyhows. i'm finally left with the last paper. which is tomorrow. so at 1515. i'm free. hah. cant wait. all that mugging is finally coming to an end.
well today's paper ? i think the biology part. fer once i'm saying this. it's easier than the chemistry. maybe it's because i studied more fer bio ? oh wells. after the paper went tiong market to have porridge fer breakfast. with yee wai and wei ling. hahs. yeapps. yee wei even went back home to put her bag. heh.
and yea. i got the ticket fer prom. when i'm prepared not to go. cos yvonne told me she's not going anymore. arghs. silly girl. how how.
haiya. anyways. i'm going to meet wei ling and yee wai and maybe gerrie at town later on. so i have to bathe soon. shall be off now. update again later yes.
takecare.
i'll be your cloud up in the sky
i'll be your shoulder when you cry
i'll hear your voices when you call me
i am your angel
and when all hope is gone, i'm here
no matter how far you are, i'm near
it makes no difference who you are
i am your angel
i'm your angel
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:58 AM
Friday, November 19, 2004
pondering
thursday
alright. yesterday. i met up with wai ling and mel before the paper at harbourfront mac. studied a lil there. hmmm. accounts paper. wasnt say that good. i knew how to go about doing the questions. the theory part was bad. i didnt know what luquidity nonsense. dies. i was expecting other topics to come out. sigh. and i did not balance the stupid account. well at least. they give marks fer each correct step and format. oh wells.
went back straight after the paper. was tired. lazed around at home. from 7 onwards was tv all the way fer me. plus looking through the mcq fer accounts. yeaps. eyes was most of the time on the square box. heh. from the channel 8 serial to singapore idol then channel 8 serial again and oc. carried on with exorcist 3 and at the same time cable. hahs. but i did study too okay. heh.
today
today's paper one of accounts was alright. what i studied came out. which was good. so it ain that bad watching tv and studying okay. hah. well at least i knew what i was learning. heh.
after the paper i went home straight. ate something and watched some tv. then took a nap. was darn tired. was lazy to even get outta bed. heh. maybe it's cos of the weather. hah.
anyways i went town with may si. heh. had pasta fer lunch. missed eating that.. yup. we watched the forgotten. the storyline wasnt that great. more of sudden shock than scary. i didnt quite understand some parts though. yupps. so overall it was just an okay. not a die die must watch thing. was supposed to go to this promotion ceremony thing with other band girls. but yeah. didnt. so hang around town. met a few people. and yesh. i went job hunting too. hah. not sure whats the outcome yet though. applied fer two. yeapps. i'm not trying ta be ks. but yeah. nevermind. heh.
came back home like 2030. watched the result show. and yup. kinda expected i think. olinda got out. somehow i thought she would. cos syl was popular amongs girls i think ? so loads of support. still. i'd be on taufik's side fer the grand finals. shall wait and see then.
tomorrow i would be studying. didnt touch the books today. just the last two papers. gonna work my last bit and i'll be free. hahs. yeapps. anyways. i shall be off now. dad's making so much noise. just cos he wants to use the computer. this week didnt go well at all okay. damn it. many naggings. scolding. bad luck to add as well. gosh.
till tomorrow. take care.
lEi - you're welcome sweetie. heh. all the best fer the remaining two papers alright ? loveloads. hugs.
reallysorry - i'm not angry. just that i hope you understand how i feel. it's not your fault. but there are somethings that you may not have known or understood about me. yupps.
aNon and =) - you two are .?
And I will breathe for you each day
Comfort you through all the pain
Gently kiss your fears away
You can turn to me and cry
Always understand that I
Give you all I am inside
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:11 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
tiredtiredtired .
HaPPY
biRThdaY
mUMmY //
LiYi
heh. yups. will pass you your present tomorrow then. cos you sho guai left town early. heh. =))
today's geography paper was alright i guess. since i'm able to do it. hopefully i did it rightly then. tell you deepa is terrible. she took a really long time to hand in her paper okay. gosh. the whole hall was like looking at her direction. winner. it's like that fer all the papers. haiyos.
and yeah. looks like i'm not fated to get fer prom. why ? cos they said that my name wasnt tick. which means i did not pay. damn it okay. it's not that i'm dying to go. but like hellllooo 55 dollars can. wah lao eh. she said she'd get back to me. hope so. or they are so dead. like yeah. wont it be better if the form teacher collected it in a bundle and hand it to her. better than a councillor to a few classes. damn it. is that suay or is it jusy suay.
whatever can. i'm superly tired. went ikea with azure. charlene. luying and mich to eat. made a round there. there went town fer awhile. then to holland fer short study with mel. mich. jenny and tiffany. will study again tomorrow morning. yupps. have yet to remember the formulas.
anyhows. shall watch tv then. tired. the last bit of the champion was silly okay. bleahs. i'm off now. take care all.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 9:17 PM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
contradiction .
yupps. second fer today.
went holland again to study. mel was late. heh. she woke up late thats why. she sms-ed and went back to bed again. silly girl.
so yeah. did geog the whole of today. i should be quite done with it now. good good. i hope tomorrow turns out well. will keep charlene company before her second paper starts at 2. yes yes. dreaded food and nutrition. we're going to grab some food whislt she study her f&n and me. back to accounts.
well think of it this way. o levels are finally coming to an end. so yeah. hope the hard work pays off. shall just start hunting fer job. and thinking bout my hair ? hah. soon soon. bleahs. but now. studies yes ?
i'm watching tv. been doing that since i came back at 7. i'll become a couch potato. 7 all the way till now. i'm gonna head back to tv. and the 9pm show's finale was a lil silly ? oh wells. shall look to tomorrow's ending. hahs.
but fer now. tv time. take care yes. and all the best fer tomorrow's and the remaining papers. and tomorrow's band performance as well. hugs.
so why dont you go your way
and i'll go mine
live ur life
and i'll live mine
baby you'll do well
and i'll be fine
cos we're better off separated
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:29 PM
alright. heck about the previous entry okay.
anyways. yesterday wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. went to holland ta study. did accounts all the way. hahs. got there around 1pm. did accounts and waited fer mel to arrive. hahs. she let me wait alone fer so long. haiyo. but was good studying alone. ha.
and jenny came too. gave us a fright when she suddenly appeared. as usual. she and her nonsense. ha. xiao didi came too. she said she would come early. so we wait till 6pm then she came. early ? ha.
i've got two girlfriends in a day. coolness. monday wednesday friday. and tuesday thursday saturday. sunday off day. ha. was total nonsense lah okay.
i'm off to study . so many people went off to obs. and sarawak. and overseas trips. hehs. hope they are having fun ! yupyup. gotta go. take care people.
nice song. sent to me from denyse. my grand daughter. love ya !
aslyn - thats when i love you
When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
WhenI love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:11 PM
Monday, November 15, 2004
just a thought .
have you ever thought what you'd be like in three years time ?
or maybe just next year.
many of us would see a change in ourselves. somewhat unknowingly. some change fer good and few fer the worse. i cant seem to picture myself in the near future. think of it this way. i'll be 20 years old in a wink of an eye.
ask yourself what have you achieved in the past years ? something small ? or great ? maybe something memorable. would we even meet our friends whom we said 'friends forever' or 'i'll always be there for you' to ? hmm. hard to predict aint it.
even so fer loved ones. how long can they be by our side ? i have to agree to the fact that nothing lasts forever. not even kinship. people come and go.
thats life aint it. thats what akes up life. thats how it makes the world go round.
it's like love ? it maybe at first sight. it maybe juat after long time of friendship. of long time courship to be with that someone. but forever. i doubt it. love cant be forced. as the saying goes ai qing shi bu ke yi mian qiang de. agree ?
what would we be doing in the future. friends drift after a period of time. or maybe cos of some reason. do we even realise or regret loosing that person.
it simply cant be answered. like who can predict their own future ?
it's too late to realise that the o levels are so important. it somehow leads to your future. just like the psle. it decides if you go to express of normal. theres no turning back. time wont wait fer us. we cant have regrets. cos those are just unwanted. we cant do anything bout it. but just work at it.
life keeps changing. it's fast how 11 ears of classroom years had past. one phase of life that it. the next phase is in our hands. we live fer our future. not anyone else.
logically speaking. treasure what you have. dont regret when it's gone and over. it's our own lose. not other people.
some strangers we see on the road. some strangers whom we dislike cos of their attitude. may just be our friend next time.
thats how silly life can be. it aint that easy.
if life was that simple. there wont be any troubles. we will never learn to think. there wont be anyone going through pain each day. we wont get to understand the meaning of life.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 2:26 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
wanting .
i'm starting to trip
i'm losing my grip
and i'm in this thing alone
righty. gonna get charlene's cd burnt. then i'll be offline. hahs. denyse is sweet. she said she came online fer me. hahs. =)) *love . she asked me to study. cos it's like not enough time. but i dont feel a thing. hahs. this is bad lar.
yesyes. bout today. woke up early again. my mother never failes waking me up early. for i dont know what reason. goodness. mum said not to study today. hahs. jia lat. went down town with family. was darned boring okay. i'd rather study like that. they kept talking bout family problems and stuffs. i just sat there and stoned. boring, thought i'd be having lunch with them or something. ended up they ate already. cos they were out earlier. heh.
kkies. i'm lazy to type lar. nothing much to update also. oh wells. it's study fer tomrrow. mum asked us ta go to my grandparents' place. hmmm. i dont think i'll go ..
anyways. thats it fer now then. i'm outta here yeah. take care people. =))
if love was a bird then we wouldnt have our wings
if love was the sky we'd be blue
if love was a choir, you and i could never sing
cos love isnt for me and you
if love was an oscar, you and i could never win
cos we could never act out our parts
if love is the bible, then we are lost in sin
because it's not in our hearts
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:41 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
leadyouback .
i've got a part time girlfriend ! bleahs.
okay. i'm downloading songs again. since there's nothing to do online. so just load some songs then.
anyways. i woke up early again this moring. goodness. i slept like 2 plus can. and mum woke me up early. 9 something ? yeah. or earlier than that. was real tired. yeah. called charlene and azure to confirm the arrangements fer the day.
went to meet azure on the train. headed to jurong point to grab some food then waited fer charlene and her dad to fetch us to her place cos it was raining heavily. good thing we took our time to get food. or else we'll happily get drenched. right. so we ate and did accounts. oh and talked too. kinda update ourselves. havent been talking uch. so yeah.
azure would be leaving fer philippines where her parents are wokring at. she'll be away fer like 2 months. yeah. long aye. yes yes. we'll miss you okay, azure.
hah. charlene kept complaining she wanna eat somemore. so we decided to go ntuc to get food. settled fer cornflakes and milk. yumms. i liked that okay. yeah. mich came over shortly after we returned back.
studied till her parents came back. even had dinner. cos her mum cooked. yup. left there around 1930. walked to lakeside mrt and took the train back.
came back. watched singapore idol. and my verdict was right. daphane got eliminated. next week's one would be interesting. gosh. yeah. then watched the champion. nice. hah. and now online. i'm tired.
have to get on with geog and accounts. like 4days more to the last part of the o's. hmmm. i heard there's a mistake in the paper ? i dont know what would moe do bout that though. oh wells. shall see then.
i wanna watch jay chou concert ! i dont know if i can. arghs. but it's after the o's. the thing is that the tickets arent that cheap. dont know if my mum would allow me to spend that kinda money. shall try my luck ? hah.
shall end here. meanwhile. take lotsa care yes. see ya.
Saying goodbye is never an easy thing
But you never said, that you'd stay forever
So if you must go
Well, darlin', I'll set you free
But I know in time
That we'll be together
Oh, I won't try
To stop you now from leaving
Cause in my heart I know
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:19 PM
blue . curtain falls .
[Duncan]
We come from humble beginnings and
Who could have guessed it when
You sit and doubt it and
Things aint all that bright
But we made it though the night
It's like a game of truth or dare
If you can make it here
You'll make it anywhere
That's what we've been told
But the stories getting old
[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go
[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life
[Simon]
We started out many years ago
No one will ever know
How far we've really come
Since we walked away
And no more words to say
[Antony]
And we made a lot of sacrifice
Undid a lot of ties
Fought a lot of fights
To get where we are now
Just don't ask me how
[Lee]
Together we faced the cold outside
No one can say we didn't try
And I will never give you up or let you go
Together we faced our final fears
Remember the moments that we shared
That's why I'll never give you up or let you go
[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh
In the script of my life
[Simon]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
In the script of my life
[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz I'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And I've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life
[All]
We'll be ready when the curtain might fall
Feel my heart beating when the crowd calls
I gotta read between the lines
Cuz i'm living out the script of my life
Cuz we all got a part we must play
And i've done it but I've done it my way
I gotta read between the lines
Oohh (oohh)
In the script of my life
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:57 AM
make believe .
ok. today started real early i must say. mum woke us up like 8 something ? yeah. dragged us out fer breakfast. gosh. i hate it. moreover it's a public holiday. thank goodness it's not so frequent she does that. hah. well. breakfast was alright. worth waking up. ha.
came back and just slacked. was dead boring. decided to meet mel and steph down at holland ta study. before that met my aunts fer tea ? yeah. was 4 something. then went on to study till 7 plus.
came back was tv fer me. didnt really do much. just watched tv. parents only came back at 11 something. oh yea. singapore idol today was nice. heh. sylvester's an jing was good. i liked olinda's teresa teng's song. the title slipped off my mind. oh wells.
anyhows. i'll be dropping by charlene's place tomorrow to get accounts done. hopefully i can sorta complete most of it tomorrow. yeapps.
shall go off to bed now. in case i cant wake up early later on. hah. takecare ya all. study hard too. jia you ! =))
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 1:28 AM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
angel from above .
||
I'll give anything for love,
Just to be with you.
And girl I swear I'll never change,
The way you are.
Cause I will be there,
I will be there for you,
Forever more.
I wanna share my life,
It's only right that you be mine.
||
heys. yeah. i woke up really late today. like noon time ? yupps. was real tired. so half my day was already gone. good thing i didnt have any papers today. would be free till next wednesday. coolness.
went down holland around 4 today. met steph. mel and yvonne. only managed a lil bit of revision. head was spinning badly. nothing much went in. oh yeah. saw naomia. naodia. christie. leandra and taufik too. talked to them fer awhile. mia claimed that i was running a temperature. okay. i didnt know that. yupps. left there around 1930. everyone left early.
mel was over at my place earlier on. she borrowed the pc to load some songs into her mp3. and at the same time i loaded songs from her mp3 into my pc. hahs. save time downloading ? hah.
our school was being featured on the channel 8, 10pm news. hahs. just caught a shot of it. it's like some few months back. when mrs suppiah was still in stc. hahs. now i'm wondering whys stc suddenly so famous huh.
hmmm and i saw baoyan in town yesterday as well. talk to her fer a sort while. heard from gerrie she was meeting jieying cos she saw em. hahs. she never changed okay. still loud. and still a mei nu. hahs. recognized her from a far.
oh wells. thats it fer now. didnt have a long day. not much ta update. so yupp. end here then. study hard people. hang in there. it's just a few more papers to freedom ! heh. takecare yes.
||
Cause you,
Are my angel from above girl
And you,
Make the world go round with love
You are my angel from above.
||
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:10 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
its in the blood .
suffering is inevitable ,
but misery is optional .
went town to meet yvonne earlier. think i'm just a failure to make anyone happy. and whoever goes out with me. just suffers. cos it's utterly boring. it's even worse if one is in a really bad mood. i thought it would be a good day. but turned out. sighs. i dont know what to say. i dont know whys she like this. sighs.
it all started bad bad BAD today.
i dont know what's been going on and all. but i just hate the way things go. just something's been stuck inside. yeah. it's pointless saying bout it.
maybe it's just me.
we were discussing bout who we need ta get back and all. i was thinking. who ?
well obviously i knew .
i'm thinking if i wanna go for prom. cos i dont know if i really wanna go. since there are people who have yet to pay and are wanting to go. well maybe more than i do. so yeah. save that $55 ? but prom is like once in a lifetime thing ?
contradicting.
we shall see. fer now. o's are still far more important i suppose. i'm still pissed with the chemistry. sighs.
maybe .
just maybe .
fate was
never there
in the first place .
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 10:59 PM
damn .
firstly .
happy birthday to
xiao xuan
and
amanda .
yeah. everything went well so far for my o levels. riht uptill today. damn it lahs. i totally left out a question in section b can. i just did one question. like TEN marks gone okay. chemistry is so important to me. my bio sucks lahs. damn it. i hafta do well fer mcq and mug fer bio. sighs. i'm like wanting to do well fer science. and now. i'm darned irritated okay. i didnt know i did that. i cant happily chack my paper over and over again. without even realizing. sighs.
anyhows. maths yesterday went okay. i managed to complete it. thank goodness. dont wanna end up failing that. yup. hopefully able to do well in that then. i'm more worried fer the grades than studying fer the paper. what logic .
xiao didi tore a two dollar note into two after folding it into a heart. i dont know why. she said to keep it in case anything happens. or if we quarrel. it sorta prevents from happening ? i dont know. silly her.
yup. so today would be off day fer me. sall mug again starting tomorrow . as fer now. i'm outta here. take care people !
mardi !!
i'm not sure if you'll read it. but yeah. hope that you're alright from yesterday. please take lotsa care alright. stop cutting okay. hugs. missing you ..
wanru !!
you too. hope you're fine yeah. and dont do anything silly okay. hugs. please take care.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:39 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
jie kou
it's sunday. tomorrow would be maths paper 2. hope it's gonna be alright. since paper 1 was. but. hard ta say. cos there's sure gonna be graph questions. and i'm like really bad at those. those that i'm good in came out in paper 1 already. haiya. so unfair.
but frankly speaking. since 1st of november. before that. and right up till now. i dont feel stressed up at all. nor worried and stuffs. is that supposed to be good. hah. well at least i dont feel that pressure. yeapps.
and mum said that i could stay out after prom. without me asking. i'm not sure if i could make it two nights. hahs. but yeah. i shall have fun all night through. i'll just look forward to that part then.
anyhows. yesterday. went town with yvonne and mel ong. michelle left pang seh me on the bus. she watch out. last time always get scolded from her cos i leave her alone. and now. yeah. i'm pek chek okay. stupid. yeah. mel was using her friend's laptop to download songs fer her mp3. hahs. totally. like spend lotsa time on it. she left us early to meet steph. not sure if mia was there too. yeap. yvonne and i went to the library to study. half the time talking. hah. missed studying with her.
yeapps. we laft the library about 7. wenta meet michelle and my parents. went tanjong pagar there have dinner with the whole family. we counted. 30 in total. hah. my grand dad's birthday. so yeah. hahs. coolness. details shant be shared bout a certain something. hah. only yvonne knows. yesh. then went back town area. outside california fittness' coffee express. was there till 11 something with my family and all. yeahs. then sent my aunt back to the hotel. another back home. cousin back home too. i reached home bout 12+. yupps. i slept around 0130. despite drinking coffee. it only made me stay awake fer a lil while. hah.
today. woke up. had breakfast. then talked to yvonne fer awhile. she asked some maths. and crapped a lil. then bathed. changed. and went to my grandparents' place. went there ta study. and eat dinner too. yeap. didnt really do much there. wanted to swim. but yeah. down with flu and cough still. so decided not to. oh yah. michelle caught the virus. again. hahas. yup. got home bout an hour ago. shall go memorize some maths formulas then. mum's nagging again.
yeahs.take care. and all the best fer the upcoming papers. it's 7 more papers. and 16 days to freedom. i wanna watch the forgotten !! shall i dig time fer it. hmmm...
luie//cousin - i'm feeling better already. thanks. and i relinked you too ! heh. nice layout. hahs. anyways take care yes ? study hard. and all the best fer the papers. love laods. =)
g3rrie`34 - heys !! hahs. never seen your tag in a long time. hope you're doing fine yeah ? take lotsa care there. and good luck too. -hugs- love loads.
novelyn - hahas. nice ta see your tag. heh. =) take care too alright. will see ya around.
i've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
and i thought that being strong
meant never losing your self-control
but i'm drunk enough to let got of my pain
to hell with pride
let it fall like rain
from my eyes
tonight I wanna cry
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 8:59 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004
alrighty. i'm currently on the phone. yeah. just thought i'd update.
yah. had english paper on wednesday and maths paper 1 on thursday. the papers were fine. at least i had enough time to complete it. yeah. but grades ? hopefully it'll be good. dont wanna put in too much confidence just yet. shall see how the other papers go first. i've got like 18 days to go with 7 more papers. work hard ! and i'll have the freedom. yeapps. shall just look forward to that. yeah. wenta watch singapore idol yesterday. was nice. think the best ? yupps.
as for today. i didnt have any papers. yup. woke up kinda late. went town with mel ong and mich. mel wanted to get an mp3. so met her mum to get it. she got a creative one. yeah. was nice. we then left for holland about 4. met up with steph. mia. fiza and her boyfriend. we studied a lil. and kinda slacked.
came back home at 2030. watched singapore idol. leandra got eliminated. i thought would be like daphne or something. yeap. watched the champion. and came online.
anyways. thatx about it fer now. lazy ta update. till my next entry them. takecare-
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:00 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
day two .
yupp. today's the social studies paper.
to me ? was okay. still can manage.
but grades ? no confidence.
and yes. i have that sore throat virus now.
damn it. totally.
i woke u this morning with a sore throat.
i have a feeling i'd just fall sick soon.
hah. anyhows.
i'm off to study now.
then to school.
yuppps.
takecare. study hard !
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 2:43 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
hua wen .
yesh. i'm having break fer hua wen paper 1 now. the next paper only starts at 2. and i didnt study fer it. i dont wanna study. i dont even know why am i retaking the stupid paper.
yupps. havent been updating fer days now. yeah. shall do a lil update since i'm free now.
friday
was the last day of school. and school was darned boring i must say. one of the worst last day school event ? yups. hahs. but i just go fer the fun of it. since it's kind of the last time i'll be officaily in school and stuffs. so yeah.
after school i went to the band room fer a visit. and i played to bone !! hahs. was fun okay. it made my day. totally. hahs. i'm a happy girl fer that mnoment. heh.
yeah. then i went back home to bathe and change. met up with phy. lu. wei ling. gerrie. kar. aisha. yeahs. everyone left early except fer lu and phy. sop we walked. phy was looking fer something. yeahs. went topshop to get something. and was like so nonsense and pai seh okay. hahas. then went to kino. she wanted to get this book. gosh. was silly lahs. i read the book. hah. guess how much i lobe you. hahs. right right. ended up not getting it. yeah. lu left around 5 i think. then we continued walking. phy got something again. met up with mel ong and got something to eat. took a train to meet mia. dia. mich and eunica. we watched the singapore idol results show. grace chua and daniel ong was there. hahs. yeahs. after the show went novena and eat then went home. went back like 11 something.
saturday
went fer lunch at hilton with my family on mum's side. aunt came back fer visit. so yeah. had lunch together. we had a really long lunch can. hahs. i left early with mich bout 4 plus. went to holland to meet mel and steph. was raining when we got there. was denched. hahs. saw leandra. taufik and olinda too. hah. talked to them. yah. think olinda was funnaye. when she saw mich and i. hah. yupp. studied till bout 9 something, parents picked us up fer dinner. then sent my aunt back and came home. i watched tv and talked to xiao didi. went to sleep at 3.
sunday
woke up bout 9plus. met mel about 12 i think. yea. went town with her to see an mp3 player. cos she wanna get one. then went to holland to study. steph didnt come cos she wasnt well. mu mummy met us fer awhile too. hahs.
mich and i left early fer clementi. met delle and dee there. we went to macritchie to watch the band performance. yup. saw erzi too. xiao xuan too. hahs. many people lahs. yeah. was raining again. the thing was bout an hour. saw the section. gave them some stuffs. and went off with de annabelle and erzi. took the train with them. went to meet maysi at tiong fer awhile before going home.
had dinner when i got back. then w2atched tv, and fell asleep real early. hahs.
today
had paper one chinese. later paper two. then ten more days of exams. yeah. charlene is hurrying me. gotta go. hahs. take care. and good luck to all o level takers.
m e l i s s a || s i x t y f i v e 11:52 AM